More Introspective Thought

Well, I finally broke down and watched Into the Wild and it was one of those flicks that got the ol' hamster back on the squeaky wheel. It was a very good film and it reminds me of how I want to get off the grid and just be one away from it all.

The film really does look at inter-personal relationships, most of which were harsh, especially in our protagonist's childhood. Sure, I don't believe I have had those same experiences, but I have been able to take a lot of my downtime and turn it all into thinking sessions, using the logic in my head, to determine much of the same philosophies shown in the picture.

If there was one thing I really found interesting was some of the ways the protagonist went about his journey. Some things there I would have done differently, but there were a few things I hadn't quite thought of. If I ever get around to removing myself from the grid, I will have a good base to start from, or at least a better one than I thought I had before.

This all doesn't take away from some of these feelings I have dug up over the last couple weeks. There have been some moments now in my timeline, which have gotten me to think and feel a bit more again. That's probably why I am blogging right now. Gonna need to sleep, so I will clear my head through writing.

I am still at a point where I don't think that relationships with people are the right way of going about things. I do mix and interact a fair bit, but that just keeps up the persona of a person just getting by with the people he knows. Still have that 'home on the range' feeling in my head/heart and I never feel terrible about being alone anymore. I would compare losing love to sticking a knife in an electrical socket, as you should learn after the first time that it can really hurt. Hell, for that matter, I haven't even lost "love" yet, as that's not been in my experience list, just lesser shades of the same thing. That wasn't much fun, so multiplying it just seems rather retarded.

For now, I am just going to try and observe more, but that isn't to say that there isn't the possibility of trying something old out again. I'm human and kind of dumb like that. I mean, there is some humanity (whatever that is) left in me, but I have that feeling that it's just going to be a harsh reminder about the knife in the socket.

Good night.

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