Mobile Thinking in Bed

Some days, I don't know what to think. Things sort of make sense one day and don't the other. I suppose if I was trying to find some consistency, it would be in the fact that I am still thinking.

I haven't really changed much of my outlook on life in general. It still really just seems like everyone now is a poor product of the times and the people before us. I kind of wish for things to have turned out differently and its especially hard to protest the past. Maybe, at the end of the day, I can take what I've learned from past mistakes and use them for my benefit. It seems like a real long shot, but it is about the only thing keeping my hope for something good alive.

I can see some hope in spots, but the loopholes close awfully quickly these days. Prevention of the lost souls appears quite rapidly. Anonymity is becoming a thing of the past, faster than one can imagine. It does seem to be getting to the point that the only way to escape is to let it overrun you and get comfortable with its power status, just so you can hit them when they don't fear you the most. I suppose George Orwell's 1984 taught me more than I thought.

Like I said in my last post, I've really started to feel again and that has me worried. Emotions are the life blood of most failure and in a lot of cases, it's failure to move forward with your overall goal. Ironically, the overall goal should be happiness; happiness that you have achieved what you needed to in life. Well, unless you have money, which in a lot of cases make emotion powerless, happiness in achievement is possible. Those who have thought about it without money, usually fall short by the human attraction. Let us not forget those blissful people who are ignorant to their own selves, which we can all be jealous of, since the bad in life even seems to make them content.

My goal is to be off the grid. I don't think there is a soul that wants to be with someone like that, having little consideration for the world around them. Sadly, I haven't gotten there yet and I have to keep up appearances in order to find that way. This lack of progress in that department is leaving windows and doors open for possibilities that I want to avoid. A certain conflict of interest.
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