Sunday Afternoon & Evening...

You know, if there aren't very many good ruminations in life, today had a couple good ones.

Josh, when I went and saw the family today, he's becoming a very good kid. Now in his tweens or early teens (pardon my ignorance here), but he's got his head screwed on pretty good. He was asking my opinions about bullies and stuff like that and as much as he's a tough kid (a lacrosse, hockey, football and tae-kwon-do player/student) he's not a dumb kid. He does try to find reason in what's going on and when he was asking me about teenagers that were giving him trouble, it was comforting to know that he was differentiating between these kids and others. Josh is a kid that can stand up for himself and my advice to him was as much as he could stand up for himself was not to stoop down to their stupid level. I'm hoping that he takes heed to it, 'cuz it will do him more good than fighting through his battles. If he can make it through it all intellectually, he won't have to settle for a physical sense of defense... although it may be necessary in his line of life. Who's to say? He's a good kid and has learned everything well... and for that I'm already proud of him. He's also a good athlete and I hope the best for him.

Secondly, I think I learned the opposition of Ashley's attention... being that of Cory, the bartender there as well. Again, if it's going to be a contest, it's not my place to compete for the undecided. In this situation tonight, all I could do is sit back and watch. If this is what I was truly up against and let's say lost, I woudln't feel bad at all. If I was to be that shallow... that's not me. Never will be. But tonight, as I sat back and enjoyed the favours on TV without my own fanfare, I don't think I lost anything at all. Saying that, I was just me. That's all I want to be. I enjoy football (I had a good time watching the Giants/Colts game) and enjoy the Simpsons... that's me. That's what I do. Any questions or complaints? If so, please ask my complaints department to file it properly.



There you go.

That was the evening though... after the Simpsons ended, I finished my pint and I was pretty much out of there. No fanfare, just a goodnight as that was it. I didn't want to make much of it. For good reason too. I don't want to give it away now... she knows, that she's in for a challenge. She should now know that Cory has made it out to Chris and I his intentions, which I have now easily conceded to... so if she wants me, barring that she reads this, that it may be more of a challenge. So it should... what do I have?

I made my attempt, I left my phone messages... any harder to get and she isn't worth my time. I would like to think she is, but there is no proof that it's worth it. Sure, I would like it to be that way, but there isn't any background or worth to it. What do I know? Not much. I know she's gorgeous and has pretty much the exact same taste in music as I... but... but... I want something more I can cling to. I've been burnt so many times by as little as that... I don't know what's real or not. Do I wanna go out? Yes... yes, I do. I wanna see what it's all about. I am willing to give that a great chance... a benefit of any doubt... but the games have to cease.

All in time, I guess.

Until then...