Stupid Partying

Self-destruction. I can feel the walls slowly giving way... I really have to stop the partying and be good again.

I did make it to work today... although I was almost 3 hours late. I chatted with Fred and he said he would have been a little more ticked if it wasn't as quiet as it is.

Last night, I was out with Jeff and Benny again... we ended up at the Roadhouse downtown... again. I did leave on my own steam... knowing full well, I'd have to show up at work today. I got a cab home, which was good... I was in at just after 2am, my target time for getting home. Got in, warmed up a mini-pizza (which I didn't eat), set my alarm and passed out.

I finally woke up just before 9:30am... I looked at my alarm clock, it was set. The little dot signalling that the alarm is on was on. I just slept through the radio. Fuck! I hopped out of bed... threw some clothes and a hat on and jumped out the door.

I couldn't really hammer it down, 'cuz well... I still don't have a license in hand. But I made it down anyways, got a cup of coffee and some Timbits and got into the office. There was only one news release to setup for tomorrow, 1 filing to prepare and 3 others to file from Friday. All in all, about 20 minutes worth of work.

Otherwise, I've just been sitting here trying to get my eyes to focus... I think the flourescent lights aren't helping me cope so well, I think I might go turn them off now.

Yeah, that's better. I opened the blinds behind me to let in some natural light... I think I can handle it now.

But gee whiz... I dunno whether I'm maturing or something, but the partying isn't quite making sense at the moment. I'm not ending up with any girls... which is both good & bad, I suppose... I'm really starting to regret some of these nights... see my birthday details... and well, I think it's just costing way too damn much.

I must re-iterate... the New Year's resolutions will be kicked into effect to get my ass back in gear. Laying off the ol' hooch will be good for me. I can't wait to see how long I can go. Then I can start casually enjoying myself again without being too stupid. I think Jeff wants to do something like it, hopefully he can stick to something like that. It'd be great to have a little help with this.

With the lack of drinking... I'll probably be able to afford a new camera, get my ass out of Langdon and do all those road trips that I really wanna do.

Anyways... less than 4 hours to go until home time. I'm hoping I can make it to a Rogers Wireless shop so I can get a new SIM card. That'll be super-handy if I can get my phone back in order. It's actually kind of good that I don't have it working at the moment. I feel a little more free without it. I have much doubt that I'll actually get my license sorted out today. It is Boxing Day's stat holiday today. Those sort of places will probably honour it, eh??

Gonna sign off for now... might be back on before the end of the day.