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You know, this whole not chasing thing is really good. I'm not bragging... I'm just saying. In all, what I'm saying is that if I was chasing, I wouldn't have such a good reaction to not chasing as if I was to be chasing.

I got a text message, unclear of whether it was from tonight or last night... it was bundled in between some late-arriving texts that were in that time frame. Nevertheless, I got them all tonight... 1 from Barb and 2 from Jeff... one definitely from tonight. Nevertheless...

So, I had left a voice mail for Barb on the weekend, saying that I'd probably be out... blah, blah, blah... would like to see you when I can. That's all well and good... I don't want to be harsh, 'cuz I know what her schedule is like and I'd be surprised if she found the time. I left the messages more for her to know that she's still in the loop and that I'm still thinkin' about her... without saying exactly that. Despite the lack of games I like to play, there is still an "acceptable" way of going about these things.

So, tonight... a big shock for me as three texts come in from the same time (as per explained earlier) and to my surprise that, yes, one was from Barb. It was quite nice and still leaves a nice feeling that:

"Hey, just letting u know im alive and not purposely ignoring u. Just really busy."

And you know, my personal read of her says that, yes, this is true. Yes, I did know her schedule before hand... yes, I have explained this before... and yes, I don't really mind. Man, if I minded it would be a much different story here than it is now.

I'll go on record right now... a few beers in, but more honest than stupid... is that I do like this girl. Barb is a genuine, uber-cute girl... she's quite intelligent... she likes to party... and in my head, she just fits. I don't know... I would hate to think that there's a girl (from this standpoint) that fits better than her. It's truly unfortunate that she is in the food/drink service industry... more for the hours than anything else... but you know... I would like to keep this good feeling about her by staying away from chasing. Which, I intend to keep up.

Just for clarification... contacting is not chasing... it's a civil thing to do. Sure, I'd like her to come out, but I think if I was "chasing," I would guilt her into coming out into situations that aren't overly necessary. Sure, I would have enjoyed her company out in town, but... am I gonna chase her until she does... no. I have way too much respect for her and the work she does to do that sort of shit. I am well-prepared to say, 'when you're ready... I'll be here.'

Patience, patience, patience.

Actually, a tough thing to say when I could use the company around now. But it's for the greater good... and the greater good there is better than the stressful good now. Silver lining, m'friends... silver lining.