Pre-Midnight Thoughts

In the end, I never fail to amaze myself. No, wait, I don't think that is the right choice of words. Let me start again...

In the end, I never cease to amaze myself how I choose to defy what is expected of me. I suppose I could have finished that sentence properly the first time, but nevertheless.

If there is. Wait, I'm doing it again. There are many things I have learned about myself, which I am not proud of. That's the whole learning part. I'm not proud about learning about myself or thinking too much. I have learned that I am terrible, I mean horrible, at picking up social situations with women.

Yes, I have done myself in with yet another girl, which, by the account of Gerald, could and should have been a lock. No, my head over-analyzed and under-performed in a myriad of chances.

Bachelorhood is my destiny.

In actual fact, I seem to be more and more okay with this proposition, as I'm not terrinly upset by it all. I know, in the past I would have been fairly beside myself, but no. It's business as usual over here.

I have come to a conclusion that I want nothing good for myself. Maybe something new in the employment department, as my job has grown awfully stale. Not quitw the market for something new though. Shitty. But that is besides the point.

You can choose your own destiny in life, don't think about it, whatever you do. Just do it.
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