Anything Out There?

The clock has it out for me, I swear.

So last night, I did end up meeting up with Barbara... only before I had forgotten my debit & credit cards at the office AFTER I had my bite to eat at Joey's (what an embarrasing debacle)... and it wasn't a bad night. I may neglect to say it was a great night... I guess it could be a considered a good night, it was fun after all.

I met up with her at Limericks down in the south... she only works like a few blocks away from there, so it was super-easy for her to get there and it was after 7:30pm, so the traffic was super-light and I just hummed all the way down the Deerfoot to get down to meet her. We ended up having a couple drinks and chatting away. Again, we laughed and laughed... made jokes, told stories... but I do believe both of us were pretty hesitant to put anything out there. I knew I was... you get burned a couple times in your career and you do get a tad gun shy. It was good though, we kept it light and funny... didn't really reach an uncomfortable point.

A couple hours in though... she was somewhat organizing plans with some of her mates from where she works to head into the core for martinis at the Vicious Circle. That was cool... I had to behave myself, since I had to get back to Langdon, so I offered to drive the troupe, upon arrival down there for another drink or two.

Barb's friend, Kendra, showed up... that was the one that Mike had chased at Ranchman's the night I had actually met Barb... so that was kinda funny. Didn't really re-live the memory there, mostly 'cuz she had none of it.

Barb and her friends were pretty much all over the work topics as they sipped on their martinis... I had already had one and a couple beers, so before too long I was just drinking Coke to behave myself with. I just sat and listened for a while... but there wasn't much for signals goin' on, nothing really to be picked up.

I think there's a lot of hesitation in the fact that Barb's hours are food service industry hours... all the good social hours of my 9 to 5 job are therefore taken up by work and even through the holidays. That sort of played on my mind quite a bit when I kept thinking if I should throw something out there, but then how I could I really find myself getting attached to someone I would possibly only see once a week through the holidays and who knows what is beyond that?

So... as it stands in my perspective... I'm still gonna give her a ring here and there. I know a lot more about what her schedule holds, but I'm not gonna get too excited about it quite yet. I think that sounds like a pretty fair plan.

Nevertheless, I ended up driving her home last night... she left her car down in the south. She's gonna go to school by bus this morning and then train it down to work, I figure... but yeah, I got her home, a hug and a peck on the cheek and a lot of thank yous and we parted ways for the evening. It wasn't something to really take advantage of... it was just about 2am. Geez!!

So, I pretty much flew home on the empty highways out to Langdon... it was just about 25 minutes, reaching speeds of 160km/h on the straight Number 1. The wind was down, the sky was clear... yeah, it was a pretty good night for a drive.

I got in and pretty much fell into bed. I knew it was gonna be a pretty short night. And it was. And it didn't help that I was dreaming like a motherfucker again... and obviously sleepwalking and being super-destructive in my room. Actually, Sunday night as well... I caught myself sleepwalking. Both nights, I pretty much cleared off my end table beside my bed of everything that was on it, including my alarm clock. It was unbelievable the amount of sleepwalking I was doing... at one point, I finally woke up as I found myself checking my phone for something... what?? I can't remember.

My mind is terribly overactive... and somewhat physically interactive as well. How scary is that?

6am again came too early... twice on the snooze... no really hot water in the tap, so I just wet my hair down a bit... got dressed... got coffee... warmed up the car... got into work (26 minute drive)... the desk lights were on, which looked really odd, meaning that there was someone here after I had left to pick up my cards... and then tried to snooze for 40 minutes... but again, my overactive mind would only allow me to shut my eyes and make myself believe that I was snoozing.

That's pretty much me in a nutshell of late... I guess, I better think about a new pot of coffee and work then.