Still Puzzled...

You know what's a song I've always enjoyed... 'Cha Cha Cha' by Jimmy Luxury and the Tommy Rome Orchestra. It's on the Go Soundtrack... what a quality tune. The link is the lyrics to the tune... it's something that's a real pick-me-up. I dunno... just thought I'd mention that now since I was just listening to it. I've had the mp3 player on random tonight.

How'd ya like that picture down below? That was a good laugh when it came out, I tell ya.

Well, tonight's entertainment was a walk. I just didn't feel like hanging around the house at all, so I went for a walk. I went out, dropped off Jen's well-overdue movie and got rent for the month. I thought that'd be a good idea tonight. I tried to do the right thing tonight... something that I've had trouble with the last little while.

The walk did get me to think quite a bit. I'm looking at things that were said and tried to make some application of them. Try to take some of the advice I've heard lately and make some sense in a way that only I can do it. But really... I don't think I've gotten any further with anything recently.

Chris has said for me 'to find a hobby or a girlfriend.' Well I do have some hobbies... they might not be very time-consuming, but I do have hobbies. I'm writing here, aren't I? I've got my hockey pool... that's a pretty good hobby. The argument about the girlfriend isn't really an argument. I'll whole-heartedly agree to that statement... I think I do need one. It would really cheer me up a bundle now that I've spent these few days thinking and not drinking.

I've found it quite strange that I've got a couple of great girls express some interest in me, but neither have the time. I asked Chris tonight if there were some normal girls for me to have some interest in... and he replied, no. He thought that there were normal girls out there... but he was wrong. I really don't know what to make of my situation... I know that my luck will always play against me. If I put myself out for one (like Melody said I should) that the other will come calling or make time and vice versa. I've gotta keep looking, unless one of them comes up trumps. Optimism isn't my companion at the moment... it's tough to burden the load of disappointment when optimism is only a blanket to cover the hurt.

How's a guy supposed to put anything out there when he would appreciate some time spent in return. I'm not asking for the world and I'm trying not to jump to many conclusions for as long as I possibly can. Maybe the reward of a little quality time would go a long ways. I generally hope that it isn't a stretch for someone and if it is, then why consider it? I don't know, I'm just as confused as I sound... I don't know if I'm coming or going and it's a good sober moment to figure it all out. I'm certainly not going to do it here... I don't think I'll figure out anything myself, except for what I need. But I think that's probably the easiest part of the puzzle.